Pupus.

Aku tak mengerti
Apa yang ku rasa
Rindu yang tak pernah
Begitu hebatnya
Aku mencintaimu lebih dari yang kau tahu
Meski kau tak'kan pernah tahu

Aku persembahkan hidupku untukmu
Telah kurelakan hatiku padamu
Namun kau masih bisu
Diam seribu bahasa
Dan hati kecilku bicara

Baru ku sadari
Cintaku bertepuk sebelah tangan
Kau buat remuk seluruh hatiku

Semoga waktu akan mengilhami
sisi hatimu yang beku
Semoga akan datang keajaiban
Hingga akhirnya kau pun mau

Aku mencintaimu
Lebih dari yang kau tahu
Meski kau tak'kan pernah tahu


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Now, I know why this has always been my song.

Exactly A Month Ago

All this while I told Allah, that He is the only one that can take care of my wary heart
That if he was being untrue to me, Allah will one day show it to me of his (dis)honesty
Exactly a month ago
Allah, the Al-Mighty, the Only One that knows it all, the Only One that knows everything, from the hidden and those of not, showed me what I have been praying for.
I was presented this huge challenge
And I redha.
Along our lives, we might have abandoned Him once too many
And for that I am tremendously humiliated. Embarrassed.
I wouldn't question His decision and justification for Allah only does things with good intentions
But I wouldn't have a clue how to cope with the challenge or how to hande it if it wasn't for Him, either

Exactly a month ago
He had presented me the proof before my eyes
The things I needed know to judge what these last 4 and a half years have been
I still don't know what to do with it
And only He knows best.

Exactly a month ago
I knew what I've been wanting to know
And all the while I thought it was unpretentious.
And I was wrong.

Exactly a month ago
I finally knew that you were untrue.
Not even to yourself.
And that is the saddest part of it.

Exactly a month ago.
I set my heart never to trust again
But only in Allah, I shall place my trust
For there is no power or might that is greater than Allah's.

Exactly a month ago.
I was left with a scar that shall remain for the rest of my life.
And if nothing prevails, that will be the only thing you have ever given me.

Write & I Shall Heal.

Defying 3 New Shoes

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'm through accepting limits
''cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you won't bring me down!
bring me down!


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Thanks for the company tonight. :)
Your lateness meant 3 pairs of new shoes for me :)
Next time, can we have dinner at KLCC, maybe?
There's Ferragamo in KLCC *grin*

Where Do You Find These People, Lorr!?

Interview - Candidate Three

Yours truly: ... so, do you know Krispy Kreme? ...

Candidate Three: ... yah... yah...

Yours truly: ... have you tried any of our products? ...

Candidate Three: ... yah... yah...

Yours truly: ... how did you find them? ...

Candidate Three: ... i didn't find. my friend buy the doughnut, I taste only lorr...

Yours truly almost wanted to say, "Yeah, I don't expect you to find Krispy Kreme products by the roadside, right?"

Yours truly is running out of patience.

Then, You Are Not The One

If you're not the one, then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one, then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine, then why does your heart return my call?
If you you are not mine, would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you, then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you, then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me, then why does this distance name my life?
If you're not for me, then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray that you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss your body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breath you into my heart
And I pray for the strength to stand today

'Cause I love you whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And though my heart is by your side

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?


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Got meh, guys who are so jiwang like this? :p

Original: ...Learn Slowly, Ok...

Tuesday, January 30, 2007
...Learn Slowly, Ok...
How do you learn to trust again?
Slowly but surely?
When does it go away?
All doubts , suspicion , wariness.

How do you learn to trust again?
You isolate yourself hence you won’t get hurt?
When does the grief fade away?
The wish that it could’ve been deleted in your diary.

How do you learn to trust again?
The voice of your head echoes to give the gut
The voice of your heart weeps once in a while
Trust.
It changes everything.
Everything.

How do you learn to trust again?
Posted by Angelita Atractivo at 3:33:00 AM


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this was also from The Choo-Choo Train That Never Stops.
so, i had been hurt once too many.

Original: Uptight Apetite

Friday, January 12, 2007
Uptight Appetite
I got my appetite back since Koh-Oh-Samui?
You think so?
I dunno.
I did lose some pounds, I guess.
That was because of your Sept 13th dinner.

Please don’t spoil my appetite again.
Please?

Of course you know how not to.
Just no repetition of a moron’s act.
i.e. a dinner with another when you’ve “never been happier”
A special 12-year old scotch present shiite.
You know the rest.

I can find a strand in a fantastis pineapple juice.
I would very much hate it if I were to find out another antic.
I am not up for another test.

Please don’t spoil my appetite again.
Please.
Posted by Angelita Atractivo at 10:59:00 PM


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this was from The Choo-Choo Train That Never Stops.
oh, i do write well :p